vacay

Goal: Become happy with my appearance. Thus, lose about 15-30 lbs and however many pant sizes that go with that number.

Procedure: Exercise daily, even if only for 20 minutes, and LAY OFF THE JUNK FOOD! Wake up for breakfast, sleep earlier. Take walks outside. ETC ETC ETC.

Deadline: January 11th OR January 30th, former preferred.



IF I DON'T GO THROUGH WITH THIS THIS YEAR I AM GOING TO PUNCH MYSELF IN THE FACE! afjeuafoidjsfoeaifjoaeiwfjdsoa

It's winter break but I still need to turn in all my lates APES work or else I won't pass the class thus I probably won't get into a college ... fml fml fml. I'm sleepy but I can't sleep right now.



P.S. 미남이시네요 IS SUCH A CUTE DRAMA OMGOMGOMG but I think I'm the only one who dislikes 신우 (I particularly don't like Jung Yonghwa) and thought he was really creepy and NOT romantic. Yuck. Got shivers from what he did.

택경/장근석 is suuuch a cutieeeeeeeeeeeee <3 돼지 토끼 <3

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Everybody is so disappointing, I don't want to deal with it anymore.

I've always given my all and taken all the crap people have given me, but this just isn't cutting it at all. I should have realized by now that everyone only thinks about themselves. It would have been better if I just didn't have any expectations from anybody. This way, I would have stopped being disappointed and let down time after time, again and again.

I hate being the type of person that people will say "It's okay if I do/say this, because Rosemary won't get mad at me." Because of this people don't respect my feelings and they take advantage of my wanting to have good relationships with everybody. Well, shove it up your ass.

I'm so done with it. I don't feel like being nice anymore.

tsukareta

"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, 'What, you too? I thought I was the only one.'" - C.S. Lewis

Physically & mentally exhausted. 1 week left and I'm free for just a little bit.

I need to get away from here -- fast.

"Never apologise for showing feeling. Remember that when you do, you apologise for truth." - Benjamin Disraeli

Grow up

It's unbelievable how childish you're being right now.
Why would I be screwing around with you. And this is how you deal with it?
Grow up and stop thinking only about yourself.

It's amazing how little faith/trust you have in me.

Fiyaaaaaa!

I'm soooo stoked to get everybody's Christmas gifts & wrap it all. And then wrap all the family presents and put it under my tree (which I am putting lights on TOMORROW! YEEEE~) excited excited! I love Christmas season. Also because it brings ... dun dun DUUUUN! WINTER VACATIONNNNNN!

But I suck majorly at gift-wrapping. I remember I used to be a bamf while wrapping them but now it's just ... pathetic ... boohoo ):

I need new black nail polish. Bah!

I don't know how I'm going to get all my schoolwork done and turned in by this Friday. I don't know how I'm going to pass my Econ, Calc and Environmental Science MC finals. I keep forgetting to print out the school addresses for official transcripts. I keep forgetting to ask my parents to write me a check for Cal Poly SLO but now I'm not even sure if I want to get into there (would my parents realize if I didn't send a check but I ended up using their CC to pay to send my SAT scores there? oopsies). I don't want to start applying for financial aid and scholarships.

I'm afraid I won't get into college.

I'm glad he enjoyed the present. I think that was the enabling factor for my massive happiness bursts today. woopwoooooop! I love hitting the bullseye in regards of getting somebody a present they really like. It makes me feel all warm & tingly inside. Yipee.

I was going to finish everything off and destroy it into little itty bitty pieces but ... I'm having immense second thoughts right now. I know, I know. Shoot me, ugh. I'm only going to end up screwing myself over.

But hey ... I only have until next August right? Might as well live life to the fullest.

... Chyeah right. UGHHHHHHHH! FML.


- Baked Cheetos.
- Baked Flamin' Hot Cheetos.
- Chex Mix.
- Onion Rings.
- 1 Kit-Kat bar.
- 1 huge cheese bagel.
- 3 Chips Ahoy cookies.
- jjangahchi.
- Chicken soup, Korean style!
- Sooooooo much rice ... like maybe 3~4 bowls worth. DAMN THE SOUP THAT I PUT THE RICE INTO! T_T


edit -- 2:03 AM


Saw this on Yuna's tumblr & just HAD to repost because it's so corny but hella true.

BOYSBOYSBOYS
• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• give her one of your hoodies to wear so everyone knows shes yours.
• leave her cute text/notes.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes.
• look at her like she’s the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she’s sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she’s sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she’s important.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you’ve never loved
someone before.
• and,when she runs up at you crying…the first thing you say is…”who’s ass am i beating today?”

Finish line

I took 3 days to recuperate. I'm better now. Not completely healed or recovered but getting there.

But the fact that I hate my school doesn't change. Screw all of you. I can't wait until 5~7 months when I'll be totally done with you.

On the other hand, I'm totally excited for Christmas because I know exactly what I am getting everybody. YAY YAY YAY! Now all I need is to find them and find somebody who is willing to go shopping with me (preferably somebody who drives because I might require shopping in places other than our dinky mall).

I think I'm going to go put up our fake (hehe) Christmas tree tomorrow.

This weekend was pretty soothing. Tomorrow will be hell though, freaking APES and AP Lit. FML. I also strongly hate AP Calc BC and AP Econ. I hate my classes. I hate school.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS.

Hurrah for random, sporadic blogs.

I broke my diet today by eating 3 Kit-Kats, some Chips Ahoy & a bag of SunChips. Sigh.

wtf

I've never been so upset in my entire life.

Fuck this, I'm so done.

& thus it begins

Today was annoying. 1st period was a drag, 2nd period sucked as usual because APES is a shitty class (and I realized I have a large amount of late homework that has suddenly amassed upon me), 4th period was ... actually 4th period was alright. Except Perez majorly sucks and I do not like her. Particularly because she always made me trash my yogurts during rallies. Bitch ): But yeah, random fire drill. Hung out with Diane & Youngmin. Went to class, planned on sleeping but talked with Cindy all class. I love her o - Coco's chocolate cream pie ... 2 and a half slices.
- Two bags of Baked Flamin' Hot Cheetos (400)
- Animal Crackers (200)
- Water
- 1 banana
- 2 pieces of gum
- 2 servings of 닭국 ... ㅠ_ㅠ



I ... think that's it. FML I bet that's like 2k+ calories because I ate so much 밥 hahahahahahahahahaha I'm so sad.

My heart-to-heart talk with Cindy Lee made my day today. Really. It felt nice to have somebody who really truly understood what I was talking about. It's been a while since I've been able to openly -- and comfortably -- say the things that have been bothering me without worrying about how somebody would view me. I think I owe this girl lunch.