18

Happy birthday to me.

ha ha ha.

man, time flies. I swear it felt like it was just yesterday when I made a big deal about turning 13 (teenager, lol!) and now I'm 18.

Wtf, seriously.

WHAT THE FUCK IT'S RAINING!

I hate rain.

Dude.

Life's such a bitch.

I don't care if I sound like some whiny teenager. Fuck that. I'll say what I want.

I think it's kind of sad when you realize that you have nobody to call or no one to go to when you just want to cry your face off. You end up thinking "will I be bothering them?" or "they'll probably make up some excuse to not meet up with me" or something along those lines.

And it sucks when you don't have any peace of mind at school, or at home, or even at church. Where else is there left to go?

I wish I wasn't born Korean. Or any sort of Asian, for that matter.

And it's hard trying to get your thoughts across to somebody when you really want them to understand why you did what you did and that you didn't mean it the way that they perceived it.

Fuck thiiiiis.

lj

Yay for indecisiveness and switching back and forth between blogspot and livejournal!

Since livejournal can be friends only (I don't like blogspot's weird private blogging) I'm going to be using that for more personal entries while I continue to blog on blogspot for .. more random bursts of thought (: yay me! woopwoooooop.

http://rosemaryyyy.livejournal.com/

And assuming that just in case there are ... silent stalkers or something out there (if not, whatever) my lj IS friends only but as long as we have similar interests, feel free to leave a comment for an add!

P.S. On another note, I love shoe shopping. I just wish I had prettier feet. AOFJEOISDO!

Easter

Easter service was pretty good. Things have been looking up lately, after I had that major break-down a couple weeks ago. Maybe it's a sign.

God is good, all the time.

I'm looking forward to a lot of things that are coming up soon. I hope things continue to stay up and I'm able to do what I've decided to do.

Goals:
- Lose 10 lbs before graduation.
- Cut down on cussing. Start: 4/5/10
- Go to VHOP at least once.
- Get my license.
- GO TO THE BEAAACH!

April 10(?): Sleep-over at Soo teacher's.
April 17: 18th birthday.
May 27: Graduation.
July 1-4: Anime Expo @ LA
July 16-18: Last CE high school retreat.

Easter Sunday's (4/4) earthquake really scared me. Check out Jaeson Ma's website and see what he's been writing about, it's TOO related to just be coincidental. The signs are totally there, God's trying to tell us something.

I feel a burning inside of me, and every week the sermon/worship really hits me hard. It doesn't change the fact that I feel the need to get away from CE and find a different place but I know that wherever I go, God will always be there with me.

Sing, Sing, Sing - Chris Tomlin