2010

Happy New Year! '09 flew by so quickly ...

2009 was full of ups and downs, achievements and disappointments, both good and bad times, and a whole bunch of memories. I can't say I haven't done things that I've regretted but what's the point of feeling down about it, right?

First thing's first, my New Year's resolutions. They're not things that I've thought up of just because it's the first day of the year ... but things I've been thinking about lately and January 1st just gives me an excuse to list them down. I'm sure things are bound to change as the days go on, whether it's taking things off or adding more on.

- Live it up. Do what I want, and do it well.
- Be more positive, to others and also just in general.
- Brush my hands off of drama.
- Cut down my gossiping O:
- Try to sleep earlier than 12 AM.
- Do my best in everything that I attempt.
- Try to go to church ...

I didn't do anything spectacular on New Year's Eve ... didn't even go to church service. I just stayed home and watched 아가씨를 부탁해, finished the last episode actually. This winter break it seems all I've done is chat and watch kdramas. Iris, 미남이시네요 & 아가씨를 부탁해. I should start on my Pride and Prejudice AP Lit homework and get my APES extra credit book soon.

But surprisingly, these past two weeks have been really hectic. A lot of things happened and a lot of shit went down. I also exchanged Christmas gifts for the very first time with my best friends, and as cheesy as it may sound it really made the end of the year really special. I wish I didn't feel like such a corny sponge when I tell people how I feel or else those few individuals would know how thankful and grateful I am to know them. AHHHHH I FEEL LIKE A SAP asldfjeoaifjoewaijfda!

... I wish somebody would take me to a place where a long and super loud train passes by, preferably someplace with a pretty view/environment, and just let me scream and yell as loudly and as much as I want so that I can say what I want to say when the train rushes past me. I also want to just lay down on pretty, green grass and stare up at the sky, looking at the clouds gently passing by. Not too sunny, not too hot or cold, not too clear or cloudy. You know one of those days where it's warm with a light breeze and there are those really cute, puffy clouds that have shapes. I want one of those days to come by soon.

I hope this year will be just as great as 2009 was. I'm pretty stupid so I forget things easily but there were a lot of things that happened in '09 that made me really happy. Things that made me smile and things that are etched into my memory. Of course there were a lot of bad, depressing things ... and a bunch of tears. But as much as I moan and groan about everything, these are the kinds of things that shape me as a person and make me into the person that I am. Every little thing that happens is one out of the many factors that will affect who I am today and mold who I am tomorrow. So I've decided to try to change my view and perspective toward certain aspects of my life and become a more patient and understanding person. I want to be able to learn from everything that I experience and incorporate that into my life. I hope that I'm able to do this, and to change. And to become a better person. I want to become somebody ... no, a friend ... that people can trust, that they can go to when they need to talk, vent, cry, somebody that won't make people curl their lip in disgust and go "Her? No, I don't really like her" or "Oh I can't tell her anything" or anything else like that. I want people to appreciate me and enjoy my company, the same way I do with the few, certain individuals in my life that I'm blessed to be with.

I'm sure that 2010 holds great things. I hope that I'll be able to continue to enjoy each day as it comes by.

I feel like such a sentimental sap today. I kind of teared up while typing this up, HAHA. What is wrong with me. I guess I'm getting old ........... :)

So, 2010. GIVE ME THE BEST YOU'VE GOT! And I'll give you the same.