Besties

To be honest, I don't think I would be able to survive without my best friends. I realized that I enjoy talking to them the most ... and above all else, I know that they'll always be there and I don't have to worry about things like "maybe they're sick of me" or "oh no, what if they think I'm a bitch". Some people have called me imprudent for giving my all into friendships that they claim won't make it into college but I disagree with them. Although I can't help but note that there is a tiny bit of scariness in the fact that these people have such a firm hold on me. But, it's really a blessed thing to realize that there will always be certain friends next to you that will accept your entirety and never shun you regardless of the decisions that you make, and that they'll receive you with open arms even if everybody else has turned their backs on you.

It always gets to me when I realize that I have a really hard time expressing myself when it comes to the people closest to me. I'm awkward and shy & I don't tell the people important to me that I'm really appreciative and grateful to them as often as I should. Although I don't know the extent of how my best friends view me, but to me they're unexpendable. I've had "best friends" before but I guess the older you get, the deeper your relationships become with the people around you. This is the first time that I've never had the doubt "Do they think of me as a best friend too or is it just an assumption on my part?" and the first time that I've ever trusted someone so much in my entire life. I don't think there's anything that I DON'T tell them or if there's anything that I don't wish to tell them (only when I forget to say it lol) and that in it of itself is so amazing, it still shocks me.

I love you, I love you, I love you. Without these three people in my life, I am sure I would've turned out to be a much lonelier and more bitter person. Thank you for being my friend, you guys really have no idea. And those people know who they are.

-- edit

I just realized how much of sappy cornball I sounded like -_- and my thoughts were all jumbled so it sounds weird ... D: I'm really not good at this.

And wtf I swear I posted this at 1 AM and now it's 2. My sleep pattern is whack.