in a land far, far away

I hate my life.
I hate this suffocated feeling that follows me everywhere.
I hate how I'm never really happy.
I hate this overwhelming feeling of unhappiness that I can't shake off.
This ...... discontent feeling.
The feeling like as if life let me down,
when I shouldn't have been expecting anything.
If anything, I should've been forming a road to my future
but I was just sitting there waiting for something that will never come.
This unbearable waiting sort of feeling ...
that there's supposed to be something more
until you're hit in the face with the reality that this is all you have.
mundanemundanemundanemundanemundanemundane
I need to get out of here.
I feel like I'm going to implode.

Somebody save me.