2-in-1

I can't seem to drag myself away from blogging. I'm not quite sure if it's a good or bad thing. Someone tell me :/

I have a feeling that this is also going to be an equally long blog.

" We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." - Sam Keen, from To Love and Be Loved

This quote really stood out to me especially because of the fact that I'm a teenage girl who has teenage friends, of whom which the majority are always complaining (and bitching, for a lack of a better word) that some guy/girl has this or that flaw and continuously trying to rationalize their actions by blaming it on the other person. Or perhaps the excuse that, if you think about it, doesn't really make any sense at all. "Oh they just aren't my type." Which really does solidify the truthfulness to the above quote and how love isn't about trying to find your prince charming (it's annoying keeping my statements neutral and genderless, takes up too much space) who can't do wrong, but about really, truly & sincerely caring for somebody regardless of their flaws. Quotes like these really just make me mull over the idea of love and how anybody could love another human being to the extent that they'd never want to stop offering their world to them. It makes me want to experience that.

You know, when people ask me what my goals for the future are, I honestly don't know exactly how to answer them. Dream job? Lots of money? Going out a lot? Yeah, sounds amazing, but you could have that and also be living an empty and void life. I just want to be content and be surrounded by people that I love who accept me for who I am and love me back. Sounds simple? If only that were the case.

I kept this screen open for so long that now I've totally lost my train of thought. UGH! I hate when this happens ... I don't even remember what compelled me to blog something tonight.

I'm hoping that Wednesday and/or Thursday is able to make up for the incredibly horrendous day that I had today. To go into a rough account of my day, I basically felt like a piece of walking dog feces or maybe perhaps a big chunk of fat lard at school because I woke up INCREDIBLY late (like, SUPER late, I kid you not) and ended up just running out of the house in the morning. Luckily it was my odd schedule day so I got out of school from 7:10 - 10:05 AM but 3 hours of school is still pretty shitty if you ask me. And then I stuffed myself silly when I got home and later ended up going to Gogi House in Canyon Country with Robert and Jerell but didn't/couldn't eat to my heart's desire in spite of the expensive $16.95 price for all-you-can-eat per person BECAUSE OF THE FACT THAT Jerell has no skills whatsoever in cooking the meat so I had no choice but to wield the mommy duties and constantly flip throughout the entire meal ... FML hahah. So in addition to having a terrible morning and feeling like a bloated walrus the entire day today (thus, skipping dinner) my mom also threw some crazy apeshit tantrum at me. It's starting to become a daily pattern. Super tiresome.

"There is no remedy for love but to love more." - Henry David Thoreau