& the Clock Strikes 12 ...

Actually, it's not 12. Who am I kidding? It's fifteen 'till 2 ... and no guarantee that it'll continue to be so once I press "Publish Post" at the bottom of this entry.

I'm really hungry.

I'm starting to become more and more concerned & agitated over my school work but, to be honest, I have no real determination/motivation to get anything done. I wish life was easier. AP Literature & Composition, AP Calculus BC, AP Environmental Science, AP Macro-Economics. Eff you, Advanced Placement courses. I swear I will place a curse on the family bloodline of whoever invented these horrendous classes. I've submitted my CSU applications but have yet to really start on my UC ones, especially the written portions hahah. A very serious FML moment, right here. I have yet to even write a single word for my personal statement. Guess who has a major problem? That's right -- me.

Today -- or should I say yesterday, since it is technically Monday now -- started off as a very neutral, typical Sunday. And then Laura & I basically got chewed out for ditching service. I don't deny that lying to my parents and not attending service is a bad thing but I also can't deny that a certain teacher of ours was grating on my nerves. If someone tells me "you have to do this" it makes me irritated and I rebel. Sounds childish? I honestly don't care. How hard is it for somebody to give advice or suggest some ideas instead of blatantly shoving their ideas and morals down my throat? And not to mention that the first half of the "advice, not lecture" later turned into a "I'm sorry that I'm lecturing you guys" speech. And oh boy, you should have seen the massive amount of times that lady contradicted herself in her forty minute spiel. Ugh.

Whatever. That's enough ranting as it is, I've already done enough with Laura and Stella. Ha ha.

So I actually got some, er, 'studying' done with Ana today at Barnes & Nobles. I can't believe I was able to focus for two hours today and also that it took us roughly two hours to find/answer 20 questions. It's absolutely ridiculous. I don't think I've focused on one single thing, disregarding SAT/AP exams, for longer than half an hour since the beginning of my junior year. Which is when I actually did my homework, for a small period of time that is. Anyways, afterward Ana's dad bought me a gingerbread spice latte that I tried a little bit of earlier that morning. Yummy in my tummy~ He is so kind & generous! <3 Then I went on a mystery drive with Kyle to Canyon Country and tried out Menchies frozen yogurt for the first time in my life and I have got to say that Georgia Peach flavored yogurt is amazing.

And I realized today that I absolutely cannot go past 70 mph on the freeway in the middle of the night in pitch darkness or else I tend to freak the hell out. I think the feeling was accentuated by the fact that the Honda Civic kept swaying/jerking and Kyle kept texting while in the middle of driving ... Drive safely, kids. Or else you'll cause people like me to have heart attacks.

I love my best friends, Stella and Laura <3 And Ana Lava is really the only reason why school is bearable at this point. Senior year isn't turning out to be all that bad, actually. Other than uh, trying to keep up with my ridiculous amount of AP courses and stressing over college applications, life's pretty good if I do say so myself.

I hope after December, things start and begin to stay all uphill (I say AFTER December because the said month contains ... dreaded FINAL EXAMS).

Senioritis, I WILL attack and conquer you ... sometime this week. Which includes my lifelong nemesis, procrastination, alongside you. Talk about a double-sucker punch!

P.S. I lovelovelove free/discounted things, but especially clothes and food. So when Joanne discounted my bbang today, well, I guess we all know where this conversation is going ;) If you're reading this, thanks a bunch <3 You have no idea how much the bbang means to me HAHA! In short, bbang + me = no starving Rosemary in the morning~

P.P.S. I ended up editing this quite a few times because I kept wanting to add some random thoughts that would pop into mind & now this entry is RIDICULOUSLY long and it's 2:50 AM. GOODNIGHT!